I'm a very competitive person
and when I see a girl with you
I want to beat the shit out of her
for taking something that is mine.

I don't know why I hurt myself like this.
It's like I'm purposely lying down
so you could walk all over me.
It's like I'm purposely putting you into my thoughts
just so it will hurt more when I realize that
you aren't thinking of me at all.
It's like I'm intentionally putting my heart on the line
hoping that you will take it,
but knowing that you won't.
It's like I'm purposely pushing myself off the edge
just so you will notice and save me like I want you to.
But knowing .. that you won't & I will fall.
I will crash and fall and it's all my fault.
I can't expect you to do anything for me.
I don't know what to say? What can I say?
I don't want to be alone anymore.
I just want you.

I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
Knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart.
I'm just sorry that it wasn't enough.

Heartbreak doesn't even begin
to describe how she felt when
he said "I like somebody else".

So how do you know
it's you he really wants, or when
you're just a replacement of what he can't have?

when you photograph in color,
you show the color of the clothes.
when you photograph in black and white,
you show the color of the soul.

Having your boyfriend break up with you and saying
"we can still be friends"
is like having your dog die and your mom saying
"you can still keep it"

I know I shouldn't get upset when I see you with
her, I should be over you by now. I only wish it
was that easy .. to just all of a sudden not care
about someone you once really loved.

I like dead end signs. I think they're kind. At least they have the decency to let you know when you're going nowhere.

This is the last time I'll fake a smile for the sake of being with you ...

i answered the phone knowing it was
you and said 'hello'. you didn't even
say hi you went straight to 'i love you'

i left the light on for you but you never came
i'm fucking sick of trying to forget your name

you look ravishing in that blue shirt. but would you
like some help taking it off. you know you want me.
you know i want you too. if given the chance what's
a boy to do. yeah if given the chance what's a girl to.
do you really want to know what's going on in my head?
if so i'll have to tell you with my lips. lovely lips tangled
in sheets. who needs love when you've got insecurities.

because when she's holding you, know
that it's killing me. let my memory be the
reason that you can't sleep and everytime
you feel her touch i pray to god it's not
enough and that i've touched your heart
so deep that you can't shake me.

&& the worst feeling in the world is
being in love with someone who feels
the same way.. just not about you

know it's not my place to tell you
what you're doing wrong, sometimes
i think about your face and there's
times that i don't think of you at all.

the most memorable people in life
will be the people who loved you
when you were not very loveable.

if youre looking for perfection dont look
at me because ill only let you down

im one of the clumsiest people on this
planet. i say alot of stupid things & i often
start stupid fights.maybe im imperfect
but at least i have the guts to be myself ..

i drank until i stumbled
& i loved until i fell

she's addicted to the song lyrics
that pour her heart out for her

last night, he said she was the one
oh but men and mascara always run

i look at you and all
that comes to mind is
motherfuckingasshole
ihopeyoufuckingdie

the only people i need in my life are
the one who need me in theirs

tonight i said goodbye but i
should have said more. thanks
for the best time of my life.

i hate this feeling. I like him so much. But i can't help but think that he is thinking of her... (by me) she's telling everyone lies about how she feels inside. she can't stand the way things are now. she only wants it all to change. what he doesn't know is how much she truly cared   you can be my hopeless romantic and i could be your classic disaster. when i cry at night, the only thing i can think to myself about is.. how can i seem so perfectly fine in the morning why do i smile like nothing is wrong? and how does not one single person notice that i'm not okay? should i cut or take the pain? the dripping blood or just plain shame? the sharpened knife or the fallen tears? the morning scars or all the fears? Nobody understands her.. Shes a question without answers.. Who feels like shes falling apart </3 i LiKE DEAD END SiGNS<3 i think they're kind, they at least have the decency to let you know you're going nowhere --amen Write me off. Give up on me. 'Cause darling, what did you expect? I'm just off... A lost cause... A lost cause... Don't even take this bet. I feel like I could be with him f.o.r.e.v.e.r, I Like him THAT much. I just don't think that its m u t u a l. Basically, i think love is a feeling. it's that feeling you get when you know you are going to see that person. you're always counting down the minutes, the hours, the days, or even the months until you will see them again. Cause you love that feeling you have when you're with them. you know that butterfly, giggly, warm, this-smile-is-never-gonna-leave-my-face feeling. Love is a feeling of perfect happiness & contentment. Being in the arms means that everything will be okay & even if it's really not going to be, you get a feeling that they'll do whatever they can to make it be, or just to try to make you feel better. it's that feeling that you are loved for who you are, & you love them for who they are. Every bit of them, no matter how obnoxious or out of character it may seem at times. It's about how you love to brag about them & annoy your friends cause half the things they say or do really isn't all that sweet & is really overly corny, but you can care less cause that to you is special. It's about how they are the first one you want to talk to when anything is good or bad, & how you are always learning something new, no matter how long you have been dating..It's about CHANGING & being a new person. Not necessairly changing your ways or who you are, but wanting to be different & a better person simply cause that person is in your life & you want to be everything to them.. this is to the girls who dont ever get the guy, the ones who are left out. the ones that lie in bed at night and wish that the guy they like would just glance at them. the girls who wonder what they can do to impress him, just so he'll notice. the ones who take longer time to put on makeup, longer to pick the perfect outfit, to show him, even when he doesnt even notice this is to the girls who are overlooked by what they truly are, the ones that have been judged too many times. the ones that feel like there nothing to do that can steal his heart. the ones whos tears turn into time, as nothing ever gets better. this is to the girls that stay strong through it all I think I like this kid a lot more than I thought I did.

Everyone hates hearing me talk about you..
&& all of my friends call me stupid for wanting to be with you.
they tell me that i can do a hundred times better than you.
but nobody understands how much i truely care for you

To all the girls who've had their heart broken;;
don't stop loving. Don’t think for even one second that you won't find someone better.
& most of all don't ever be afraid to fall again.

I know we swore it was

F.O.R.E.V.E.R
But it hurts too much

to stay around

Porcelain doll with tangled hair,
People pass or stop and stare,
Her cotton clothes are ripped and torn,
Her parents regret the day she was born,
Her plastic heart has melted down,
Her stunning smile, a perfect frown,
Her shining future, a blackened road,
Her flowing words, a fucked up code.

Once glowing eyes, now dark and dead,
And voices scream inside her head,
A falling rain of acid tears,
Mirrors reflecting all her fears,
A fire raging through her veins,
Drugs to reduce all her pains,
Her porcelain skin, now scarred and bruised,
Her staggering beauty, now gone and used.

A foreign beauty, now buried alone,
A cryptic place where light once shown,
Once graceful flight with song and dance,
A life of hope and true romance,
Now blundering falls and morbid display,
Where crystal tears fall every day,
A heartless place of death and disease,
Where evil comes and goes with ease.

Porcelain doll with tangled hair,
Shattered dreams and timeless despair,
A radiant star, now void black hole,
Trying to replace what innocence stole,
Now in her hand, a bloody knife,
Now in her mind, an ended life,
A porcelain doll, a murdered youth,
Her hopeless fight, a deadly truth.

===

laugh when you can,
apologize when you should, & let
go of what you can't change.
you can like anyone you want,
the problem is, so can he.

so i'`ll erase everything;
&& i'`ll forget about you.
it'`s just too bad that this;
might be the hardest thing
i will ever have to do

 want a boy who would hold my hand in line at the mall & make all the girls jealous. I want someone who would sing to me at random moments. Someone who is more goofy than romantic. A boy who would throw stuffed animals at me when I'm acting dumb. Someone who would bet me kisses that he could beat me at all the old playstaion games & then let me win. A guy who would make fun of me just to hear my laugh. He'd played with my hair all the time & surprise me with 25 cent rings. Someone who I could share lollipops with & lay on a blanket with to count the stars. We'd buy tons of disposable cameras to take the silliest pictures of each other & squirt waterguns at each other in the house. But mostly ; some who would be my best friend & would never break my heart. He would just always make me smile.

(( I pretty much found him))

If something was really important, fate
made sure it somehow came back to you
and gave you another chance.

 

I wanna be his one & only i wanna be a part of his life
20 years from now i wanna be his wife
i want to be his perfect little hottie he's always checkin out
i wanna see my first name next to his last
i wanna have his kids 30 years from now
i wanna wake up next to him
i wanna be able to look back at our past
i wanna grow old with him
i wanna be the grandma of his grand-children
80 years from now
I wanna be able to say that we shared a wonderful life we had together
i wanna lay next to him..the day i die

 

You know that boy that you can never
get out of your head? the one that
seems to relate to everything you do,
every song, every word? the one that,
at the mere mention of his name, your
entire face lights up? yeah, that's you <3

 

she doesnt care if you call & wake her up in the middle of the night. she hates arguing, but you know she's good at it. she's terrified of the dark but when she thinks of you, she smiles. she loves the way you stare at her. and she wouldnt change that for the world.

LOVE IS WHEN YOU SHED A TEAR
and still want him ....
IT'S WHEN HE IGNORES YOU
and you still cant stop thinking about him ....
IT'S WHEN HE LOVES ANOTHER GIRL
but you still smile and say "i'm happy for him"
LOVE IS WHEN YOU WANT TO LET HIM GO
but no matter what, that boy is the only thing on your mind

I give up on love.
It isnt worth the heartache.
There are better ways to die.
Im sure there are better ways.

goodbyes hurt you more than anything..
especially when deep down you know..
you will never say hello again.

 

Sometimes i wish i could just forget you..i wish i could leave you behind in the dust...i wish i could show you how badly you hurt me ; how badly you stabbed my heart && walked away...oh, i wish i could just show you how much i really loved you..but it's too late now...i've moved on...and i'm not coming back...not now..not ever...

 

 

i lied when i said i didn't like you anymore.
truth is. I liked you more than ever.
i lied when i said i was okay.
truth is. I've never been okay.
i lied when i said i don't need you anymore.
truth is. I need you more than i ever have before.
i lied when i said i was happy you found someone new.
truth is. It kills me to see you with her.
i lied when i said i found someone.
truth is. your my only one. and i love you

When you lose someone you don't get over it

I started to care what everyone else thought of me
& Then noticed that you can be a dork, scream for no reason,
laugh when no one else is, sing a song that first comes to mind,
& Just be yourself. Because I promise that there is someone out there,
That loves you for every freakin bit of it.

I'm leaving the past where it belongs..
way behind me. My future..well, it looks
fantastic because you wont be a part of it.

<3-Have you ever thought you were over someone
until you saw them again? All the feelings that
were there rush back.. all the memories.. all
the wonderful words spoken between the
two of you return.  Now everytime I see him,
I fall in love over again, the only problem is
I know he doesn't feel the same..

<3- i'll never be over you. i'm just getting better at
hiding the tears, && smiling when i really don't
want to be. but still, if i was ever asked what
i missed most in life, i'd say you.  X3

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Tribute To The Nice s

Here's to all those s who used to be his number one. The ones who waited
all night for him to call, only to check the caller ID the next morning and
be disappointed. The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried
your own tears, and moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in
it months later like nothing ever happened. Those of you who cried on the
first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call
was going. The ones who listened to him say, I only want to be your friend,
one day, and the next, listened to him say how much he loves and misses you.
We deserve something, and this is our tribute.

Here's to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was
different, hoping that maybe people really do change. We listened to our
friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him
another chance, caught from our parents, and even snuck around to see
him for a while. We went through the great stage with no fights all over
again. We started this out thinking it would be just friends, and ended up
falling in love with him again. We wanted nothing more in the world than to
hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the
past, they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it, it
was like we were dreaming. This is for us.

Here's to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again
waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days.
Here's for the tears cried and dried all over again. We wanted so
desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn't possibly call us
at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. We trained ourselves to
believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us.
We learned to SETTLE for someone who didn't treat us the way we should be treated.

Here's for the ones who did their hair and make up and put on their
prettiest earrings, only to hear him say that he couldn't see us today. The
ones who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else.
We just couldn't believe that he could do this to us again. This is for
those great s, who loved him more than words can say, and took him back
no matter what happened last time because they couldn't bear to look back on
their lives one day and wonder "what if".

This is for the s that stayed up all night long listening to him whine
about an ex friend who cheated on him, and cried during the entire
conversation. The ones who hoped he would realize that he deserved better,
that he deserved us. When he said that he loved you, but he was in love with
her, he didn't mean it. This is for the ones that held on to something that
was never there to begin with. This is for us s, who somehow managed to
get him to forget about her, and get him to tell us that he was in love with
us again, only to have him tell us three weeks later that "things were going
too fast, he needs time."

Here's to the s who couldn't cry to their friends because of how stupid
they felt. The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces
again. This is for the ones who couldn't bear to even tell their mom what
was going on, for fear of an "I told you so." The ones that could just TELL
that they had made a mistake ever allowing him into their hearts, their
beds, and their dreams again.

We knew that we deserved better the entire time, that we deserved a guy who
would call when he said he was going to, one that would come see us whenever
he got the chance, one that would really care about us. We just wanted the
one that we loved like that.

Here's for the ones that FINALLY realized that he never gave a about
them. Here's for the time that he broke your heart again. This is for those
days spent trying to hold back the tears, and the tears that turned into
anger, then disappointment. Here's for us s who finally realized that we
deserve better. This is for those confusing days, when you miss him,
and want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your
waist. Stay strong, and remember that relationships are like broken glass,
sometimes it's better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces
back together and get hurt. Remember the times you cried, and how long it
took you to even be able to look at another guy like that.

When "your song" comes on the radio, turn the station. When the day comes
that he realizes what a mistake he made and tries calling, turn your phone
off. When he tries coming to your house, don't answer the door. Think of the
broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation and the tears, the wasted
moments and staying up all night wondering where the HELL he was. Think
of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of
the night, and how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn't him,
and realized that once again, he hadn't called when he said he was going to.

One day, you'll find a guy who's worth all the tears, but he won't make you
cry. You may think that you'll never care about someone like you did that
guy that you always ran back to, but you will. It's gonna hurt like hell,
and it's going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal.

This is for those s, who fell back in love with their ex, only to
get hurt all over again.

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THE 0NLY THiNG W0RSE

THAN HAViN  A BR0KEN

HEART iS KN0WING Y0U

W0ULDG0 THR0UGH THE
SAME PAiN F0R JUST 0NE

M0RE CHANCE WiTH HiM

 

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There are just a couple of things that I thought I should tell you. I learned these while I was the object of your guy's affection. First of all, don't be frightened if he smothers much more love on you than you had expected. Don't be surprised if he treats you much better than any other guy you have ever met. And let it not scare you that he will actually listen carefully to every word you say, even when you're just speaking quietly. Also, you should know that he remembers everything you will say. He's hurt easily, especially by the painful words a careless girl will say. If you do hurt him, then you'll have to pay the price of seeing the broken look in his passionate and deep brown eyes, and watch the light in them fade. But if this happens, all is not lost- a kiss and an "I love you" can heal anything. And please, don’t say I love you to him, unless you really mean it, nothing hurts him more then someone who really doesn’t care. Sometimes, he won't tell you what he is feeling, but..just know that he is protecting you and if you ever feel that something isn't right, just look into his beautiful brown eyes and you will be able to see into him. You can see everything he is feeling, everything he is thinking, everything that isn't right with him... He won't ever try to hurt you, because he just isn't that way, so please don't hurt him because if you do, I don't think I could ever forgive you. I don't think there could ever be a worse feeling in the world than knowing that you have the boy that I love and knowing that you hurt him. You should know that if you two ever get into a fight, just make sure you pick only the ones worth fighting for... He will always keep his temper and will never curse at you or call you names, despite the anger he may be feeling. Though he may act mature, most of the time, once he's given you his heart, he will begin to open up to you and his silliness will make your heart smile, in a way that words can not explain. Don't hold a tight grip on him, let him go and be part of the world and experience new things. You will find that he is a busy guy and that he is so very independent. Sometimes, he will need his space, but don't worry... He'll always make time for you and even when you're not around, you'll be in his thoughts. You will find that he isn't like any other guy that you have met, so please don't take him for granted. When it comes to his money, don't take advantage of that, He will be so unselfish with it, because that is the way he is. And even though he won't admit it, he really does like to be surprised. He is less tough than he may appear, you just have to take the time and let him bring down his guard... He is so sweet and so amazing and know that if you ever leave him, you will break his heart apart, the same way that my heart breaks apart, as I sit here writing this to you. Don't ever try to pull him away from his dreams. He is going to be an extremely successful person and won't ever let you give up on your dreams, either. He will encourage you to become everything you can be and will never, ever let you down. He likes it when you kiss his ear and nothing is better than hugging each other. Just watch how your hand will fit perfectly into his and when it does, it seems as if nothing in the world could hurt you, because he is there. And when he puts his arms around you and tells you that you are the girl he loves, you will know, there isn't any guy in the world better than him... Don't ever let him go. You will regret doing so, for the rest of time... I promise, you will.

--

i hate it when my cell phone rings
& [your name] doesn't show.
i hate it when i hear our song
it [kills me] long and slow.
i hate the way you still smile at me
even though [she's] at your side.
i hate the nights when i'm all alone
& all the times i [cried].
i hate the way you say my name
or [just] the way you look.
i hate the way i know you
how i can [read you] like a book.
i hate the way i don't hate you
because i still [love] you so.
i hate the way you'll never see
& the way you'll [never] know. <|3

Quotes.

because i <3 them.

<3<3<3

i wish we had never met.

i regret every word that i said to ever make him feel like he was something special

the great moment dies
when your cellphone rings
and your parents tell
you that you need to come home

 

5 things only girls understand::
001.the need to buy the exact same pair of shoes in d i f f e r e n t colors
002.the difference between beige, cream, off-white, and eggshell
003.cutting your hair to make it g r o w.
004.eyelash curlers
005.the innaccuracy of every bathroom scale ever made.

 

and so tonight, i put in the sad songs,
plug in the headphones, and crank up the volume,
just so i can drain the night away.